The Wonders of Life.

Blessed.

I sat by the window alone, eating my lunch.

As I was looking out the window a lot of thoughts came to mind. One of the many was about how old my great grandma was and sadly…the arrival of her death someday. Something else connected to this thought was the day I went to my great uncle’s funeral where I met my many Khang family members whom I have not seen in a long time since I was a child. I thought about how he passed away and his mother who was sick as well was still alive.

I continued to sit there thinking, trying to remember the images of that day.

…Something I remembered hearing from my grandma was, my grandpa is technically the only son because his mom passed away a few years after he was born (my great grandpa married three women as it is natural for the Hmong race). Yes, he has many brothers and a few sisters but not one of them are his full blooded siblings. 

As this thought came to mind, I also thought about my mommy. Not one of her siblings are her full blooded siblings because my grandpa married three women as well and my grandma was previously married with other children. I remember my mommy telling me my grandma was pregnant after her but she had a miscarriage. Til this day, my mom is the only daughter of my grandparents.

My heart became really sad when these thoughts came to mind. It’s painful to know that the people you love so dearly don’t have any siblings and grew up with no one close to them. Their journey was probably a hard one, worst than my own.

Even though my grandpa really had no one growing up, he grew to be SUCH a wonderful man of God. I know he’s gone through a lot and felt lonely at a point of time, but he sustained through it all and was blessed with a beautiful wife, children, and grandchildren. My grandpa is such a godly man and it’s amazing to see how much love he has towards our Heavenly Father and the world. He’s an amazing man. Someday, I want my husband to be JUST like my grandpa, one who serves the Lord willingly and full-heartedly.

Thinking about all of this made me realize that I should  be thankful for my life because I have siblings and so many people love me. I have the BEST grandparents ever who are like my 2nd parents. My parents love me A LOT because they give me basically all I want if they’re able to afford it and will do almost whatever to make us happy. Although my parents are divorced, I find joy in it. I’m overflowed with a lot of love from my family. It’s hard to admit it just because there’s just been so much anger within the family, but now I realize all this I must become wise and admit.

I have such a BLESSED life…

I have a beautiful mommy who is full of pain but endures through it all and still find joy and peace because she has us, my siblings and I. Hearing stories from her makes me learn so much. Seeing my strong grandpa makes me happy. He’s the happiest man alive and the cutest grandpa ever. He’s filled so much love.

GOD SAVES THE BROKEN HEARTED. <3

OUR GOD….is an AWESOME GOD.

Something for a Change.

Instead of complaining and hating and being annoyed of a person who drives me crazy, I should step back and look at the person’s life. I should observe the ways of their life and actions and have UNDERSTANDING of why they are the way they are.

After I’ve figure it all out, I shall pray and be nice to the person. I shall treat that person as I do with all others. I shall love that person and help that person INDIRECTLY.

SOMETHING FOR A CHANGE….be the better person.